I keep so much pain inside myelf. I grasp my anger and loneliness and hold it in my chest. It has changed me into something I never meant to be. It has transformed me into a person I do not recognize but I don't know how to let it go.
How to best handle everything. Sometimes I just want to disappear into the wilderness but I don't like bugs or wild animals. Perfect life laying in bed eating cake all day without gaining weight. Whatever, go to sleep and give it to God.