This describes me watching or reading something new that I love. I'm happy and I love the story and the characters but there is always this nagging fear in the back of my mind that it will end in tears.<<< same tho :))
It's the feeling when the don't-want-to-be-planned meet the never-give-up-planning. The more people try to fix things, the deeper they dig into bitter mood. Problem is: haven't got the courage to become absolutely mean.